This past weekend was very tedious and these next three weeks will be no different. Having 3 term papers (all 10pgs) due within a time span of 7 days makes life hard. Yes I could have started them earlier but I choose not to and now I am paying the price. Then again...I've had something going on since the second week of the quarter, wheather it be midterms or essays. This quarter has been tough. Now I know I can handle 5 classes, b/c this quarter I have five intense classes and I am making it through, although its causing severe mental trauma. Well 1 term paper down, 2 to go, then 5 finals (one of which is an essay >:-O) I had a talk w/ Aubree recently to ask her stuff thats been on my mind for the past 3 months and the conversation took an emotional toll on both of us. I'm not quite sure what grounds we're on with eachother now. I fear what I told her may have upset her quite a bit, but it was only the truth. In light of my sad emotional life I am still plagued by constant dreams of a certain person and sometimes they make no impression on my day, but sometimes they make me have such a lousy day. I've been having weekly lunches with Christy recently and they've been helping me a lot, just to have someone to talk to and get stuff off my chest. Christy is one of my dearest friends from OHS and I'm really glad I have her to talk to. Wednesdays noon at Hunans, join us for a rant, a chuckle, and perhaps a moment to go "'hmm' *rubs chin*". Although that time is subject to change next qtr... I find myself having a crush on someone that I do but I dont want to have a crush on. I dont know if I'm quite ready to even attempt to jump into a relationship, although its what I really want. That and my self-image is really low so I dont even know why that person would like me back, especially since I am convinced that many a guy has a crush on them. I cant deal w/ these emotions now...I have way too much school work ahead of me to deal w/ them.

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